I am not special.
I am not important.
I am not famous. I have very few important friends.
I am a kook by any conventional measure.
I do not have a Ph.D. I do not have a doctorate of any kind. Though I have a Bible degree, and though I graduated at the top of my class, I did not finish my graduate work.
I do not lead a church. I am not a pastor, elder, bishop or deacon. Though I volunteer my services as I am able, I am not asked to lead groups or teach (except for children’s classes). I have not published any books (best sellers or otherwise).
I do not head up a charitable organization. I am not on the board of directors of any organizations currently in operation. I am not a featured speaker or lecturer. I am not considered an authority by anyone.
I am rich (sure) among poor people, but I am poor among the rich. I do not belong to any prestigious organizations. No country club membership. I am the president of nothing. I don’t shop at high end stores. I don’t use credit cards. I drive a humble Nissan.
There is no conventional, good reason to read what I write or listen to what I say. My words will not earn you any money, respect, or admiration – at least not from people we typically admire. On the contrary, there is every conventional, good reason not to read me or listen to what I say. My words will likely cost you money, respect and admiration – at least from people we typically admire.
I am nobody special. My friends are nobodies too.
I get no perks for being me or saying and doing what I say and do. More often than not, I get tolerated. Tolerated and sometimes shunned.
But I think I speak for Jesus. And if you can show me where I am mistaken about that, you will do me a huge favor! Because if I could change the message, I really think I could be pastor and sell books. I really think I could rake in a living and get some respect. And that sure would be nice.
But… If it turns out that I really do speak for Jesus and that I am not mistaken about that, then whether I die and speak out in futility all my life and never see the benefit or whether those in earshot find conviction, God will have used a nobody to serve his Gospel message. And in the Age to Come, the rewards will outweigh the costs in the present age.